A Year of Hope and Dreams

I believe that Grief is a very personal experience that each person handles differently.

In my case, the experience of walking with my husband to the end left me with post traumatic stress that I had a difficult time dealing with.  On top of the blanket of grief that overwhelmed me, I had a young son that was in a deep sense of mourning and my focus was on his well being.

One thing I did learn through the experience is that time may not heal all wounds but the distance of time from the pain allows a new life to form.  Time also allows the layers of grief to slip away.

In October, a dear friend and I were talking and she said she was happy to hear that I was coming out of the transition phase and walking into the next chapter.

That statement settled into my thoughts and I could feel a new door opening up.

Zack and I had Finally found a new rhythm to our life and I began to look at goals and dreams with a new perspective.

The goals I focused on over the last couple of years were developed from survival mode and trying to create a new life for us.

A couple of months ago I made a vision board for the New Year, an old tradition that suddenly floated to the top.  It was a vision for the future, based on where we are today, not what we were running from.  

My drive and determination was returning and feelings of Hope and Possibility were becoming stronger.  And a deep sense of gratitude settled in my heart........for having made it through to the other side.

I can also see the growth in my son.  He has settled into a new life that includes playing football, basketball and soccer, bike riding, new friends and making the honor role at school.

We made it through and are now Hopeful for the Good that God plans on bringing into our lives this year.  

"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born, says the Lord." Isiah 66:9